Kitty Says MEOW!

“Ask what most people want out of life and the answer is simple; to be happy. Maybe it’s this expectation though, the wanting to be happy that just keeps us from ever getting there. Maybe the more we try to will ourselves to the state of bliss, the more confused we get…to the point where we dont recognize ourselves. Instead we just keep smiling…trying like hell to the be the happy people we wish we were. until eventually it hits us, it’s been there all along…not in our dreams or hopes but in the known. the comfortable. the familiar”

( knowledge of what is possible is the beginning of happiness )

( For all who care )

( Jellicle Cats come out to - night, Jellicle Cats come one come all: The Jellicle Moon is shining bright - Jellicles come to the Jellicle Ball  )

Where do I begin? My life has been a crazy whirlwind of adventure these past few weeks. I've taken on projects and turned others down. I seem to be away from home more often. I'm a busy bee as Megan calls me. When I left you all last, I was gearing up to start Broadway Dreams Foundation's Summer Intensive in Atlanta. I know I gave a slight write up, with pictures and everything for you all. But I don't believe I ever truly said how inspiring it was to work with those kids. I've never seen so much raw and phenomenal talent in one room. BDF sure knows how to bring in the truly gifted. After arriving back in NYC, I took a brief hiatus from the chaos of performing. Instead I took the time to begin researching and comparing prices of baby furniture. Sebastian and I never made the full public announcement, I don't believe. If we did I blame my forgetfulness on this little guy. I'm now nearing the 5 month mark and enjoying having an excuse to eat whatever the heck I want.

After maxing out the credit cards, I hopped on a plane to Columbus, Ohio. There I performed in a little show called Wicked Diva's with the gorgeous and talented Julia Murney. We had a blast working together. Even when the show got cut short after my Defying Gravity with lightning flashing all around us. It was truly an interesting evening. That weekend ended with Julia stealing my food and a little violence on my part. We've since offered up apologies and are back to be great friends.

Days after doing a reading for this new musical My American Family, I hopped on a plane to St. Louis to undergo the first round of costume fittings. In a few short weeks I will be playing Grizzabella in Muny's production of Cats. When fittings were done I was given the go ahead to take my leave. The next time I will see the crew is when we begin rehearsals. Until that time I was planning on paying a little visit to my parents in Orange County, California. Its been awhile since I've had a job on the West Coast that allowed me to really just relax and see them. I won't lie to you all, I'm loving the attention that my mother is giving me. I haven't had to lift a finger since arriving here. While here I am doing a little Master Class for MTU. Before long I will be returning to St. Louis for our quick rehearsals and then doing 8 shows.

I won't be returning to NYC at the conclusion of Cats. My dear best friends Shoshana, Eden and Megan are involved in a little show called Jawbreakers and I will flying back to CA to see them in that. And really who knows, I might stay an extra few days or so with them. I promise to stick around more often and get to know you all. Things are just so chaotic now, that my mind is all over the place.

I know many of you find it difficult to respond to fan mail, and on occasion I do to. But I make it a habit to respond to the emails that come through. One of my devout fans emailed me not to long ago, wanting to know if I could help them with their theatre final. At first I planned on saying no, as I might not be able to finish what they need me to do in time for their project to be turned in. I found I couldn't say no to this one, as the question she needed my help answering struck home. She asked me, "What the theatre meant to me, and how I felt about marrying an actor and if it made it easier?" I thought I'd share my answers with you all, as many of you might not know what theatre has meant for me.

When I was younger, theatre was about disappearing. I loved being able to jump into another "life" as another person. I found myself in a world filled with bright costumes, music and laughter. It was much more fulfilling than the realism and confusion of my preteen and teenage years. Theatre was an escape and a security for me during that time of my life. As an adult and professional theatre actor, I am no longer trying to disappear. I am trying to express and share myself through the characters I portray. It's like I want to make sure I infuse a bit of myself into every character. I certainly want to transform to be truthful to the story and the role I am playing. But in order for me to be truthful, I have to have a little piece of me living in every party. So, theatre started out as my savior. It became my passion. And is now my voice and my purpose.

I don't think I could have married any actor. It HAD to be Sebastian. Theatre certainly brought us together, but it wasn't his profession or immense talent that attracted me to him. I knew he was much more than that. Now ... having said that, our mutual love and respect for the theatre adds to our relationship because we understand what it takes ... the discipline, the anxiety, the excitement, the long hours, the onstage kisses. However, I think many understand the "craziness" that goes along with a life in the theatre but only a few actually know. And its that knowing that adds to our relationship. It is because of that knowing that he and I can be each other's biggest supporters, loving critics and greatest comfort.


Now I want all of you to tell me what the theatre means for you. For those who are not stage actors, tell me what made you decide on television and film, and what it has done for you.

We have a tendency to do stuff like this quite too often. Isn't the novelty and showiness supposed to wear off at nearly 3 years?